Who do i think i am?

How many of us have been convinced of "The One" bogus theory? 10? 50? 3million? 7 billion +? Yeah, I'm also in the same Whatsapp group. I can't count the number of times I've been told that every human on this planet only has one soul mate, one 'compatible' mating partner, on some sofa s'lahlane shit, that Prince Charming and Snow hullabaloo.      One kiss👀??? As soon as Disney was done convincing me that there's only one Charming for me...and one frog to kiss I entered high school and I was sold the idea that I must choose the one career path. This narrative is still reproduced in my now life as people ask what is it I do for a living and offer puzzled looks when I answer with a paragraph instead of one word. I'll admit it, the effort I sometimes unnecessarily offer  to try and condense my life experiences for their 'understanding' does not help me or the other.  Side note:I do give one too many fucks sometimes🙍.  I h...

I've lived most of my life believing that okayness is something I can acquire externally. I was born, like many of you reading this, into a world that told me that I am a sinner but I shouldn't worry because if I followed 10 (plus another 10 000) 'simple' rules written centuries before I came into being, I could cleanse my soul of this sin. Although my parents would describe themselves as Christian, I can't say I was raised to be religious but I sure was made to believe in my unworthiness (through social conditioning). While my first instict was to reject these ideas I slowly came to believe this because I sought to harmonise with the world I found myself in. So for a while, a good while, I lived my life mostly trying to obtain this elusive worthiness, my daily lived experience was that of efforting with hopes of feeling deserving. Now, because of my none-existent religious background my effort was not offered to gain purity for heaven sake. Nope. I was effort...